Didn't post a long time :( but still love you all & that's why I'm starting posting again.

First: have a new blog: http://feelingswithoutemotions.blogspot.de/
-would be happy, if you visit. it's on german, but there are a lot of pictures. it would mean a lot to me :)

Second: school sucks ! Don't want to learn :D

Third: was in Amsterdam last week, pics are following :)

Just another information: together with my boyfriend again- and happy ! *_*

Ooooh, there's sooo much to say !

Since Wednesday I've got holidays. well, i don't have much to do- just do something with friends & of course take a lot of pictures for piczo !

I met so wonderful persons in the last week & had a lot of fun ! you can see the pictures underneath the writing :)

NEWS:
-I started to work at a café, that will be amazing! To bring people ice cream & coffee *_* I'm so excited !

-Yeeeeeeees. Finally I took some good photos. ^_^
I was so sad because the last time my photos weren't good, it got me deprimated (if that's a word i english, haha
:D)

-thinking about to sign in in blogspot.com :o -> should i try? .. I'm scared about having no readers ._.

-thinking about a new designing of my room, well, just a wall but in the holidays it should finally work! (of course pictures of it are coming in here)
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PiCTURES!

oooh she's so fucking cute :)

while we walked one and a half hour to the Rhein (water, u know :D)

The girl is my best friend, i know her since I'm three years old & made a post about her too :)
The guy is a very heartful person & like him very much (:

Oh, there he's again :')

I still love you so much ._.



                                  You show me hell in the most beautiful light,
                                                         your lies disguised as alibis.
                                  You know you're hell behind your beautiful eyes,
                                                                          a feeling I can't fight.

                                                         We're just a falling star,
                                                         we're just a broken seed.
                                                        And when an ocean parts,
                                                   will you wanna sink our dreams?
                                                         I don't know what we are
                                                            or what we'll ever be,
                                            so listen when you feel your heart skip a beat.

                                           Blacklisted Me- Reprobate Romance.♥
                                      (the Chorus is just like the situation between
                                       my.. ex-boyfriend, boyfriend.. -whatever-
                                     between me & the boy at the picture over this text)

& sorry for my bad english, I'm so tired :D

Love, Tessa :)

In a way very happy because I came on her on Piczo & saw:

FINALLY GOT OVER 200 FOLLOWERS *___*

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you !

Soo.. here's follower number 200, check out her blog, she's amazing!!
http://theforbiddengardenoflust.piczo.com/?cr=7
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Well.. I'm just sad.
On Saturday I broke up with my boyfriend, I wasn't happy anymore, didn't love him so much as he did.
But nobody knows how sad I am & how sick it makes me and nobody understands that i have to get over that too. It hurts me too because i loved him but i have to do what makes me happy & he didn't. That's not his fault & not mine, it's just like this.
Now, he calls me, sends me messages & don't let me go. Ok, he still loves me but it's harder for both of us if he doesn't give me & him the time to think about it & move on.
I think he expect that we're gonna be together again but I don't want that. I know, I can't live my whole life with him. He's so a wonderful guy but maybe made for another girl.. not for me.
It makes me sad but i've gotta letting go, as hard as it is.
But everybody mustn't think I've never loved him because I did.. a lot.

Yesterday I took some photos with my best friend, with the rose my boyfriend gave to me on Valentines day :)

I didn't wanna use it for the photos but it was sunday and every flower shop was closed & I thought: "why should the rose pointless going to be dry ? let's make memories :D" and so we used it to take those photos.
I love them because they're memories of a beautiful day :)

oh, isn't she beautiful? *.*

Profile picture in Fb ^__^

                                                               You said youd be in carolina
                                                               but i knew id only find you.
                                                               writing letters and telling your
                                                               closest friends it's just to much.

                                                               We both know this is going nowhere fast
                                                               i've had more than enough
                                                               half hearted promises.
                                                               
                                                              i know you never meant to say
                                                              that everything will be okay
                                                              when i lye in your arms at night
                                                              then you lie to my lips
                                                              every time that we kiss 

                                                              you should have just said no
                                                              you should have just said go
                                                           you should have said nothing at all

                                                              This Love- Dear Carolina ♥

Happy Valentinesday :)
Yesterday I saw in Facebook a lot of post like: "Fucking Valentinesday" & so on. I have to say:
Guys! It's just a tuesday :D

But of course it's a beautiful day i think. Everywhere roses & hearts :)
Surely it's sad for those people which have nobody to share with or lost it but I was 3 years long sad too & now I have someone to share this day and for the other people: There will come somebody sometime, i promise !
 That's why I think, people who are unhappy with their situation don't have to make this day & the feelings bad for those who finally have found their luck.

I made cupcakes for my friends  because i think Valentinesday isn't just for the one you love. you love your friends too, i think. I'm not for bying roses or expensive things.. that's why I made it for them and for my boyfriend.

In school it was so great, i was so happy; actually the whole day was just beautiful, because after school i went to my boyfriend.. yes, that was my valentinesday :D 

What did you do? You can write it as a comment, if you want to :)
Hope you had a happy day! Love <3

I love him :3

Cupcakes I made for may friends & boyfriend (:

The Smarties on top mean I love you in german (ich liebe dich), hope you can read it.. the B was very difficult :D